Wanted: Self Confidence (A Mini Rant)

Is this normal?

Or is there something wrong with me?

I get ideas for things I want to do: an idea for a post, an idea for a painting, an idea on organizing my sock drawer that’s more practical or efficient.


I formulate a plan of attack and begin. Shortly after starting, I begin to wonder if there’s a better way of doing this thing. I return to the drawing board, formulate a new plan and begin again. As this goes on and on, I lose confidence in myself and the enthusiasm I had for my original idea. Eventually, I wonder if this thing I was going to do is even worth doing anymore. Then, I give up.

Why am I like this?
When did I get like this?

Most importantly: how do I stop doing this?
Because I really don’t like this part of myself.
This shite needs to change.

I miss my self-confidence and get-her-done attitude.
I miss my stamina.
I’m tired of giving up on everything!

I need to stop changing my mind.
I need to stop seconding guessing myself.
I need to stop worrying what other people are going to think.

I need to just do!!

Yes, I second guessed myself all the way through writing this and thought about not posting it.
If you’re reading this, I managed to click the Publish button.
Well, bully for me!