On May 27th, 2012 I began writing daily appreciation posts, listing a minimum of 3 things that I am thankful for every day. An entire year later and I’m surprised to see that I have continued to post nearly every day. Surprised because I have a severe tendency to procrastinate and a lack of confidence in the things I create. Usually I begin a project only to abandon it some short time after.
The inspiration for this blog came to me back in January of 2012. It was during my 3 day stint in Triage at the Royal Alexandra Hospital. I remember lying on my gurney after being diagnosed with an autoimmune disease and I knew, in that moment, that my attitude going forward was going to be very important in how well I dealt with and maintained this disease. I decided I would do my best to stay positive; I would write down the things I was thankful for every day. That idea turned into an entire blog concept where I would write about my experiences with this disease, the things that help me stay positive and the things that inspire or interest me.
After leaving the hospital, procrastination took hold and I didn’t start posting for months. You can say that I was very much exhausted and recovering from a flair-up is serious business. I did, after all, end up missing 3 weeks of University and I was on medication for some time. However, if I’m going to be completely honest, procrastination played a big part. There was plenty of time for me to pick up some paper and a pen, or sit down at the computer, and there were times where I did start something, but more often than not I would plan to do it later and later never came.
Of course, a lack of confidence doesn’t exactly help with writing… or creating anything for that matter. I could
attempt to write an entire post about it. I have this habit of sitting down and writing something then coming back to it the next day and hating every single word I’ve written. If I haven’t finished a piece and I come back to it at a later time, I have a hard time picking up where I left off.
Then there’s the worrying: Is it interesting? Is it OK? Am I making sense? Am I rambling horridly? Do I need a comma here? Is my opinion valid? What is my opinion?!
That’s all normal for anyone who writes, paints, or creates. I understand the only way to master these feelings is to keep writing and actually share my stuff with people. It’s the only way to learn and grow and get better.
Going forward, I’ll continue with the Daily Appreciation posts and I plan to tackle my bad procrastination habits and build up confidence by updating more often with actual articles.
So, here’s to another year of blogging!
Time for a glass of wine!